Today when I woke up at 5.30am I had a run planned. But as soon as I opened my eyes I realized that I did not feel great – my throat felt sore and my body was hurting. I decided to be nice to myself and stay in bed for a few hours and postpone my run for late afternoon. As I got up I felt even more miserable and I can’t seem to find any energy at all. Unfortunately I don’t even have energy to stay happy – feel lonely and weak.
I guess if it wasn’t for the fact that my best friend/husband is gone since September 8th and in a totally different time zone, I’d call him and get some motivation/love. But.. The fast is that I’m alone with this today. Alone with feeling down. So here I am, back in bed with a bottle of water as company, trying to figure out a way to get back on track.
I try to convince myself (my body rather) to get going, I am pretty sure that a short run will do me good (or will it just make me sick?). Hopefully I’ll get out for that run as it gets close to sundown and the temperature has dropped a bit. And I really hope that I can hunt that smile down and put it on my lips and in my heart again..
I guess what I just have to realize is:
You can’t always be bright, sunny and full of energy.